Even now im not sure where im going, just think about a theory which says a lazyer makes a loser,

People always say that the realist is always far away from ur thought, Im always be excited by my Own dream and keep go after it, but what is it like to find out that what u finally get is not exactly what u wanna at the beginning?

I am just a wanter who r good at wanting but worse at getting, comfortable and easy life r fit for me if things never change on me,  like the season, it should be better to just be spring and fall, then I dot have to think about which coat I should choose for cold or hot day.. what a lazy bone……

i only care about the most important things in my life, which r only half of what others think about, I was proud of myself cuz  my life seems easier and maybe I will outlive others. So dose that mean I am not suitable for the fiercely competitive outside world? On the contrary, Im keep fighting for the life cuz its also blane… does that mean if I wanna the life Im dreaming of ,I have to be more “movely”?

life is limited and not long, but why most people live as if his life is mortal? Sometimes I try to imagine what if Im a patient suffering from a terminal disease? What if I know my life is limited and the end is coming soon? I will obviously be upset but after that, what should I do? Of course everything I want to do from my heart, and at that time there is no fear cuz the end thing works out and push me powerfully.

But on the same way, our normal life is like that, we all have the end, but just the end are a little bit far ,and not in sight just now, so just because of that, we.. or I live in that way?