depression attacts me again today

i learned a new word: floopy: a messed-up feeling that nothing is solid and nothing is sure. what i am sure is i need a break and get a shot. But it feels like i am falling down, its a space no limit, no earth then no sky, i dot know where i am going and every thing is the same with everything.

my psyche is ill, i am way past the fling thing of life? or was it supposed to be a fling and now its time to be flung? im not myself now, i just wanna the way i were.

i miss my mum, what if i can back to the wet and warm bed? no kidding ,kiddo~

i recalled that nite when i hold my mum--she is soooo small--i never found that until that moment, suddently i found something was fleeting and being that now...

during our life, there must be some moments that we know we will remember for the rest of life, and now ,every single second with my mum is like that, man know how to cherish always after they losing it,but luckily i am earlier than that.In my mind, my mum is like a big tree where i can stay when  thunderstorm, but just a second, she turn out to be soo small, its my mum...and now its time i take care of her..

i wanna cry out, why my world is blank? where is my pics , everyday i am drawing on it but everyday its blank as be4

 life is a big empty bottle and i am a fish in it

i am fighting against myself for myself

every moment i go through with my mum r pressed in my heart, for ever...

i asked mum if its possible what do u wanna do?

i wanna travel  to a warmer place when its winter and to cool place when its hot...

i wanna help this nice dream come true