life like sucks

Even now im not sure where im going, just think about a theory which says a lazyer makes a loser,

People always say that the realist is always far away from ur thought, Im always be excited by my Own dream and keep go after it, but what is it like to find out that what u finally get is not exactly what u wanna at the beginning?

I am just a wanter who r good at wanting but worse at getting, comfortable and easy life r fit for me if things never change on me,  like the season, it should be better to just be spring and fall, then I dot have to think about which coat I should choose for cold or hot day.. what a lazy bone……

i only care about the most important things in my life, which r only half of what others think about, I was proud of myself cuz  my life seems easier and maybe I will outlive others. So dose that mean I am not suitable for the fiercely competitive outside world? On the contrary, Im keep fighting for the life cuz its also blane… does that mean if I wanna the life Im dreaming of ,I have to be more “movely”?

life is limited and not long, but why most people live as if his life is mortal? Sometimes I try to imagine what if Im a patient suffering from a terminal disease? What if I know my life is limited and the end is coming soon? I will obviously be upset but after that, what should I do? Of course everything I want to do from my heart, and at that time there is no fear cuz the end thing works out and push me powerfully.

But on the same way, our normal life is like that, we all have the end, but just the end are a little bit far ,and not in sight just now, so just because of that, we.. or I live in that way?

Sense of belonging

After hell hours of shopping in Beijing union mall, I caught a bus back to uni. It’s a typical

autumn night in chengdu, on the street lamps’ yellow dull light, it looms in the cold air~

suddently, a empty and weak feeling took up my heart----everything in front of me belongs to

others, nothing is mine. In  chengdu, the  city ,I am just a stranger,a passager-----belong to noplace~~ no home. .warmness are others, homes r others..comfort r others,just coldness left for me~

the sense of belonging approached to me, “ it will be nice if there is a cute house with yellow warm light on and huge house,also someone waiting for me in it” I send that idea to Panda,to keke

to johnanna.well I think they can know how do I think~ the sense of belongs, Panda said : its just a

NOV.27 morning

To my dear bf, now I know I should envy nothing but “marriage”since u said yes for that question: if we cannt marry ,will u go back and marry others even if i still love you and be ur gf?

And now I found the most painful thing is not distance but other things existing in our deep minds ,to some degree ,we hurt each other~

But could u don’t break ur words anymore? I remember at the beginning of this relationship,we have a “friction”,remember what we did after that? We made a rule, and says don’t say “end”so easily,but see what, u have said something like: if u want to end now, ok,,for several times, and also something means I dot care about u,did you care about my feeling when i hear that? If u don’t know,I can tell u,everytime u said that to me, I feel as if u push me out, far away from u.

U always says I don’t  know ur sicuation,but u also says I don’t need to know ur family rule. why not to tell me something to make me understand you well? See, that’s ur secret which u don’t wanna share,so everyone has its private life..i respect you.

You said if u could not study in china, you wanna break up by urself… you think its good to me~ well I think u don’t know how to show you love well… if u  really love me, you should give me the chance to choose. It seems that this relationship is only for u … yoyo is just a supplement, she can do nothing except following ur decision,cuz only ur thinking is right and suitable

I don’t know when u will see this on my space,but I hope after u finish it,don’t say something like ok,lets end or break up…… I think my fragile heart cannt stand  it anymore.

3 啤酒与陈醋(最好用镇江陈醋)按2比1混合，每日用毛巾吸湿再涂发一次，连用半月。发质自然变亮。

　　Sherming认为眼睛是体现美丽的一个重要环节，她平时外出时一定要上妆的部位就是——睫毛，而且她身上一定会随时携带睫毛液和睫毛夹。她还有个让睫毛变长的秘方：就是用维生素E胶囊。

　　每天晚上睡觉前，她将维生素E胶囊的皮用针弄破，将里面的液油涂擦在眼睑和睫毛上(量不用太多，只要轻轻一层就足够了)，这样连续进行两个星期后，就可以感觉到眼睫毛变长了。

　　至于熬夜后的黑眼圈，Sherming则使用冰冻过的纯牛奶敷眼圈，一般敷10多分钟后，黑眼圈就会乖乖消失。
颇有成效的自制面膜

　　Sherming说，她工作忙所以没有时间去美容院，而她偏偏又是比较难打理的敏感型混合性皮肤，结果，痘痘、脸色发黄曾经成了家常便饭，很让她烦恼。不过，后来她慢慢有了一套很有针对性的DIY面膜好方法。坚持下来，护肤效果很不错。

　　美白、去黄气——“酸奶+柠檬汁”面膜

　　半瓶冷藏过了的纯的酸乳酪(可以先喝一半)，加上3-5滴的新鲜柠檬汁，拌匀之后，敷在脸上15-20分钟左右，最好睡前做，做完之后好好睡一觉，效果更好。一个星期2-3次就可以。

　　有时候Sherming需要熬夜，她就会在第二天早上起来后，做这个“酸奶柠檬”面膜，恢复肤色的效果也很不错。

　　她还发现做完这个面膜之后，上妆会变得很容易。